I am not a coward

So here i am. Swallowing my own pain, having my eyes burst into tears
You're the one whom ever said wont making me feel worthless
But at the end, you did a thing you said you'll never do to me

I cannot blame on you for everything is wrong
I know it is always me, right?

So tell me instead of leave me hanging in the road we've been building since long time ago
Because together seems impossible lately

At least i'm not a coward
At least i have my pride instead of risk and get everything I want
Duuhhh

You know, sometimes pain could be a power which beat everything that blocking in your way
And my pain made me grow stronger
And my tears made me even stronger

Goodbye is suck

What's the point of having someone there for you?
To make sure that you're not alone
And what's the point when they go?
You only left by loneliness and lost
This world has been created with proportionality
There's yin and yang
Good and bad
Strong and weak
Big and small
Day and night
Love and hate
Happy and sad
Bright and dark
Hello and goodbye
I hate goodbye, I hate watching someone leaves me, for a moment or for a good
I remember the words from PeterPan movie, it's like
"Never say goodbye, because goodbye means going away, and going away means forgetting"
Either do I, i don't like goodbye
But someone told me that if you ready to have one, you must ready to lost it too.
I know. All people do
But the feeling when you left by someone you care about is just so hurt that they are no longer there for you.
The feeling when you left with the memories playing on your head repeatedly
And you can't feed your head with the new ones, that's suck.
You seemed like you trapped in that. Stuck on that.
Yeah, goodbye is suck.

This Regret

Have you ever regret with things we called "LOVE"?
I have.
And every time I wish I could turn back the time, and fixed everything that damaged
It feels so hurt when you felt not good enough for the one you love
And fact that I love him, definitely make me so hard to get him out of my head
And I still care, and I still even dream about him in the night
Yes this is not break even, told ya!
Or is this?
Is he thinking of me too for the same way?
Banyak orang bilang, jodoh tak lari kemana
Really?
The question is, if he were not belong to me, if we were not meant to be
Am I ready enough to start all over again with someone new? And forget everything?
Am I ready enough not to look back?
Because when you decided to let him come in to your heart, means you let him come in to your life too
And when he's one of part of your life, you just can't get rid of him kayak kamu nggak akan bisa juga nyingkirin idolamu gitu aja kan?
Time is the answer. For everything
Because when he is already effect your mood, he's already one of part of your life.

Mr. Charming Danny O'Donoghue

Been addicting to this supeeeeeeerrrrr charming guy!!!!😍❤
And definitely I can't stand for his charming :-p
He isssss.............. Danny O'Donoghue..........Or Daniel John Mark Luke O'Donoghue❤❤❤
He is the leader of band Irish called The Script
Listen to his song and his voice. You're gonna love him too :-)
Okay okay I'll show you his charming, hold on....

And this❤❤

Have you already feel the adrenaline for his charming? Lol💋

Okay so I kinda dislike the rumors that he is dating with the contestant of the voice UK, Bo Bruce
Since he is one of The Voice UK's coach.
He said that Bo Bruce was his inspiration!!! OMG!!
Harusnya aku yg dibilangin kayak gitu :-( :-( :-( soooo jealous :(

Danny with Bo Bruce

Jadi Bo Bruce ini adalah salah satu mantan drink and drug addict, and now she is caring for her sick mother who battled with cancer.
Sooooo jealous she went to be Danny's inspiration :-(

Stupid Words

Someone has ever told me one thing--or I read it somewhere-- that you have to smile and happy or whatever no matter what happened because YOLO.
And I have just got it those word's mean lately.
But seriuoly people?
Maksudku you just can't smile everywhere with those pains that stabbing you all the time. Or at least that's what I felt
Aku tau kita cuma hidup sekali di dunia ini, tapi bahkan pun kita tak selamanya bisa berpura2 untuk tak merasakan apa2 atau mengaku we are fine when it is opposite from what its look like
C'mon! Admit it!
But often, we say we are okay instead of you said you weren't and explain why. It is easier. I know. I do too.
It is easier to laugh in front of all of the people, stay strong, and whatever to make sure you are okay
It is easier to cry all alone on the night
It is easier to pretend your really strong when the world against you back
But somehow being that strong is suck you know. Because people don't realize when you're in a weak point
Back to the top, I actually wonder what if my problems happened to who said the word above
Apa mereka bakal tetep mengatakan yg sama? Dengan tulus? Tanpa berpura2?